In 1985 I started keeping notebook journals. Obsessively. Recording everything. Pretending that my life was a novel. Drawing pictures and writing poems and songs. Twenty years later I have thousands of pages. It's weird. What follows are some of the drawings and writing from those notebooks. Much of it reflects a lifestyle I could not maintain. I didn't. A lot of the drawings and writing was actually done while I was driving. I don't recommend it. I don't recommend any of it. But it's an interesting record of a life lived hard. Don't try it at home.